2017 went by in a flash, but the memories made will forever linger in the battlefield of the mind. Linger in the mind as a lesson learnt and not as a torture as I’ve always done in my life. Over thinking every crumb of the ‘why this, why that, why me’, mistakes and all that jazz that have been some what of a setback in my life. If people were being rewarded in pennies for over thinking I would’ve been damn rich by now. -And this is the reason why I decided to drop it like a bad habit that it is.
Credit to the fellow who created the image below. I don’t know what he or she went through last year, but I can definitely relate.
Lets get into it;
Trust No One: The bible couldn’t have been more right when it stated in Psalm 118:8 that, “It is better to put your trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.” Finding a job after my teacher’s training was so challenging because today’s employers want people to come with thousand years (exaggerated, but you get the point) of experience. Like wtf!! Who should train someone for you to use em? I found this attitude so frustrating! God being so good I got a job and three months of being in the job, a colleague put a complaint against me of physically abusing a child. My world came crushing down!! I was suspended with no idea exactly what I had done wrong. This colleague was someone I trusted. If anyone will stab me in the back, she was the last person I would’ve thought. Prior to that incident she exhibited some attitudes that made me question her as a human being. I was kept in the dark and treated unfairly which had a great emotional toil on me. God being so good, I found a no-nonsense union rep. to represent me. After a couple of meetings and a long investigation, I was found not guilty of the allegations. I was actually trying to save a child from getting hurt, so I had to react fast. She only saw the bit and just acted/blew everything out of proportion. This experience shook me.
I was also betrayed by a good friend who’s practically a sister to me. I confided in her and she carelessly mishandled the information. I didn’t mind the fact that she said what I said, but adding bits that were untrue and leaving out her contribution to what was said was just straight up disappointing. Messed up a relationship built for years between sisters.
These two incidents brought me in tears and gave me sleepless nights. -And when I’m brought to that level, that’s a damn pain and lesson. Watching who I surround myself with and confide in.
Mistakes: This is probably something no human being will ever stop doing. We can only strive to do better. In 2017 I strived not to punish myself for the things I should have done that I didn’t do and the things I shouldn’t have done that I did. I’ve come to the understanding that I’m a work in progress and that is okay. I am build from every mistake I’ve ever made and the end product is what’s important.
Stop Pleasing People: I’m among the people who wear their heart on their sleeve, see the good in people and have a giving spirit. It is just who I am, but with so much disappointments and taken for granted, it made me question if it is healthy to be this kind of person. Maybe its a fear of failure, fear of rejection or both. Regardless of the reason, it was time to pull back. I had to learn how to say no and realise that I’ve a choice. Sometimes one is being manipulated, but you’re some how blind to even realise this. Out of this I’ve learnt to put myself first and not feel guilty about it. I mean why not? Everyone else around me is selfish and so me me me. It was time to grow some kahunas and not give a hoot.
A lot happened in 2017, but in a nutshell they fall under the above three pointers.
Can you relate to any of this? Any advice? Share a lesson you learnt in 2017.
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